so i never update my blog..

Currently
listening: Common - Punch Drunk Love
feeling: happy
why?: it Christmas time!

so Christmas is definitely the most wonderful time of the year. but i havent been crankin my christmas carols. i usually start listening to christmas carols around july...but we all know what i was worried about in july [if not, look at the blogs]. but yeah, my b-day is coming up! im sooo happy. HOOTERS BITCH! lol. but lots of drama lately....the boyfriend isn't perfect after all...but who is? just gotta forgive and move on...not sure how all of my friends are gonna take it. =/ all i gotta say on that subject. but yeah!, i need to get out of the house..feels like im in a prison. ugh. so yeah, im gonna go do my hair, which i been meaning to do since saturday. lol. im gonna go listen to some good music. :)

i need you to hold me.

Currently

listening: Beyonce - Scared of Lonely

mood: good

why?: everything is good again

so it's been YEARS since i've blogged! ah!

kinda scary

:(

so the update bruh!

lost 2 friends & starting to regret it. think i might talk to them soon. big think!

gained a new new BRAND NEW bestie & i love him dearly

still got my bitches & we started [F.A.B.]

i've changed my career plans

still with tyler major

though we have had problems

so now i must get into details

lets start with the bad

well the loss of friends. michele and ashley. it was just alot of crap. and ty was in the middle. dont really wanna get into that because it's irrelevant. i really miss them sometimes. ashley is like funny as fuck &  me and michele has sooo many damn insiders. i love both of them. the trust is gone though. still thinkin bout the situation. idk bruh. idk

the NEW bestie!!

Josh....JQ HOE! i love him so much. it's funny because our friendship started with my chocolate obsession. he couldnt stop laughing & everything he said kept me rollin. so yeah, thats my bestie. swear we stand out like bird shit on a black shoe!

[insiderr.]

[F.A.B.]

Fly Ass Bitches.

nuff said.

we too cool bruh.

career goals

i have dropped psychology. i wanna be a graphic designer. this is the 4th change in less than 3 years. pretty funny. im really into graphics though [im actually in that class now :D]. we just made notepads. who wants one of mine? i made a jupiter one [F.A.B. name] & a fresh elite one. they are awesome.

tyler bruh

so yeah, it's been 3 months [4 next monday :D]. yet another month not spent together. it sucks so much. with all of his other business [school & music], im totally at the bottom of the list. i talked to him about that yesterday. he said he'd make an effort. let cross our fingers & hope it sticks. hope. a girl needs some affection sometimes & it seems like years since i got any. cant wait til he's off punishment though. i can finally go to the avenue. :D

that's about it. i gotta go squeeze in some work. only got like 10 minutes.

you'll be my only true lover

Currently
listening: John Legend feat. Andre 3k - Green Light
mood: good
why: idk

so tomorrow is my 2 months with tyler the philip & it feels......good. this is a first. i cant stay in a relationship worth shit! & im still in this one. & when i did stay in a relationship, it was just because. no real reason behind it. i love tyler & im really good at where we are in out relationship. no need to slow down, this pace is nice. no need to speed up, that'll just mess us up since we're so fresh
[at least in my eyes we are]. :D

well yeah, tomorrow i have graduation writing test. im super ready, but im still kinda scared because my gradualtion is riding on this. pressure much? lol i'm confident in my writing though. if you've read any of my shit, i think you are too. lol.

well im gonna fo to sleep. i need to rest up for this LONG ASS test. lol. WISH ME LUCK! :D

now let me kiss you on your hot spot.

Cuttently
listening: Gym Class Heroes- Live A Little
class: graphics
mood: SLEEPY!
why?: good reasons

so last weekend was THE best weekend of this year so far! omg! it was so much freakin fun. i made a couple new friends. that was awesome! talked to kevin the whole dam weekend lol. he's a little [bitch]. HA! anyway, im sleepy. dont you wanna know why? :) well dashawnda bess called me last night and we talk from 11 something til 2 in the morning. we caught up and talked about EVERYTHING! she's been going through some shit and be being the friend i am, i was there for her all the way. i love that girl more than most lol. it was ah-mazing!

so yeah, i've been bumping gch for the past.......week or so. i love this cd! it's so freakin good. it so much more than all of their other cds. listening to the old ones and this new one, it seems like they finally found themselves. it's doesnt sound like fall out boy with travies voice over it! [*clap clap clap*] it so much better. [im listening to viva la white girl. i still love this song. always will be my theme song.] but yeah, i have work to do. i'll ttyl

psst. no diss to fall out boy. they are good. :)

kissin ears.

Currently
listening: Gym Class Heroes- Drnk Txt Rmeo
mood: uncomfortable
why?: just read

yooooo! i dont feel right. i dont care about anything really. im going through a social shutdown. somebody needs to bring me up. :( im gonna go do some homework now. bye

I'M GETTING MY NEW iPOD!

it another iPod touch
lol
but it WAAAY more fye than mine
omg!
and it looks extra good!
im seeling it for 300 if your intrested
lol
im so excited
lol

now im looking at all the games that go on here and im like AH-mazed!
i want the fighting game....IT'S A FIGHTING GAME!!!!!!!!!
eeeek!!!!!
im so excited!
im selling my pod for the new and improved!
im gone
im gonna go look at more games and not do work!
:)

new iPod!

i want a new iPod!!!!!!!!
i hate mine
i want the new nano!


im gonna get back to my work now
:)

bonjour. ca va?

Currently
listening: Tila Tequila- Fuck Ya Man
mood: sleepy
why: it's totally 12 & i ate 2 plates of spaghetti

well yeah, i haven't updated in a minute! well yeah, things have been awesome over on this side of the missisippi. well, this cold sore isn't the sexiest thing to happen to me in the last couple of days. it's almost gone though. i think i got it because this weekend was rather stressing. i think i just made it stressing for myself. thinking too much makes you paranoid at times. lol. i went to the hillgrove game friday. that was fun. the schoolis pretty nice. it's not as diverse as MHS but it was cool. had fun. um, kevin came back from VA saturday. that was pretty cool. he keeps me laughing in lit class. i actually broke down and talked to marcel for a couple laughs lol. at least he's good for something lol. um, chelsea! im so happy for my bff! she's gots herself a REAL FULL BLOWN WIFEY! i swore chelsea was gonna be a player for life. im glad my chica is finally giving her all to someone. as long as she's happy, im happy. i think everyone should experience that. giving your all to someone. it's a nice feeling. especially if they are doing the same for you. it makes you feel like your just on cloud 9 all the time. all because you let your guard down. it's a beaultiful thing people. im going to go to sleep now. i might have typos, but, WHATEVER, it's WAAAAAY past my bedtime pansy.

can you hear me now!

currenly
listening: Ne-Yo-Say it
feeling: heartbroken
why?: my family is so stressing
class: graphic commnications

i dont know why im listening to this sog in the middle of class. & i got lunc with tyler. omg. it might be gon down. lol. jk. total jk. i just put it on shuffle & ebony eyes just come on. this song reminds me of michele (no homo). i aint talked to my chick in a while. might talk to her on the space tonight. who knows? but my family drama......crazy. you know how get that hollow feeling in your cheast? well, thats what im feeling now. i can't really get excited about anything. i cant feel anything, almost like im numb. and im hella cold, but the might this bitch ass AC in this school. lol. but m teacher is telling us to get off the computers. i'll ttyl. :D goodbye mac :)

in order to survive, you gotta learn to live with regrets.

currently
listening: Jay-Z- Cashmere Thoughs
mood: ok
why: im at school, but im on a Mac :)

im in graphic design and im crankin this jay-z. i had psychology last block and i was listening to it too. i've seen to have forgotten some lyrics to reasonable doubt. i just remembered why i love this album so much. it's easy. it's nice. i can saw this album made me fall in love with hip hop. before i was a stictly r&b girl. now, im a feind for hip hop. lol. tyler is at school today . YAY! swear i love him. OH YEAH! there was a tornado warning today. i was in junior buildin with jasia, azia, katie, chris, and donovan. it was fun. me and azia was crackin up! lol. well yeah, i got an assignment so im leaving now. loves :) [I GOT FRENCH NEXT! AY!]

the game is over.

Currently
listening: Destiny's Child - Game Over
mood: great
why?: read on...

"His swagga. His confidence.He's got his little mama's mind bent."

i love that song. it's exactly that im feeling. well a cross between this and wreckless love. im starting to get used to this whole relationship thingie. lol everyone should know i havent been in one like this.....ever. lol makes me happy. this weekend has been pretty damn boring. friday. OMG friday. so much freakin fun! i loved it. the block party was way more fun than everyone thought it was gonna be. i have some of the funniest videos and pictures. i'll put the videos on youtube later. the dome game was this weekend. i love my team so much, they just dont have any team esteem. everytime i asked if they were gonna win, all of them we're like "oh, idk.", "well see". Im like bitch! you need to know if your gonna win. i really wanted them to win though. we lost 21 to 31. maybe a little more esteem would have pushed us into the win. anyway, im about to go be bored some more. loves. :)

my boys.

Currently
listening: Drake- Faded
mood: good
why?: i had a good weekend

omg! updating this thing gets harder. but yeah, since im finally off the phone with ppl, i get to let my mind process all that has happened this weekend and just think. well never mind, chelsea just called. it's all good. first off, I TALKED TO BRI FOR THE FIRST TIME IN FOREVER!!!! she's been having fun over in decatur where it's lamer. LMAO. i seriously hate that place. but she's been having fun. secondly, this must have been love connection this weekend cuz two of my friends are like attracted to each other! [me and chels just off the phone]. it's so funny. i love it. it's kevin's bestie and my bestie! lol. thirdly, i been with tyler all weekend and was with him and kevin saturday. love them. I got really mad at tyler for the first time ever. i never thought i'd be totally pissed at him, but i did. i guess thats what tyra meant my never say you wont hurt someone, cuz ppl get their feelings hurt all the time. thats true. so im never gonna tell ppl im never gonna hurt them. well, on purpose at least. me and ty went to church and it was nice. i dont care if it's too early. i think religion isn't something you should keep under wraps. if you know what you believe it real, you should be able to share it with people. i think it helped me though. got some stuff to work out with the man upstairs. lol. i am proud that i have a forgiving spirit though. i know some ppl will never learn to forgive. sad. but ANYWAY, after church, we ate breakfast and went out side. the playground was fun. we sat at the lake and it was so sweet. i love sitting in nature. it's beautiful. you should try it. im going to me and ty's spot one day this week. just to sit and think. this blog is super long, but whatever! i got alot to think about. i might look at colleges again. im gonna look at something other than HBCU's, even though i think that wound be a funny transition from the melting pot we call mceachern. lol. idk, i just like the idea of being around a bunch of beautiful intelligent black people. but im gonna look at some schools in chicago, pennsylvana, virginia [i love that state], maybe new york, mayland, and D.C. i might look in GA. not sure though. i need to look at scholarships and SAT date and some books too. junior year is my make or break year. im gone make it [on my jackie long]. but yeah, im about to watch ATL and do some homework. if you got my number, call me. text me. i love you. i love chelsea. i love azia. i love kyndra. i love bri. i love tyler. MUAH!

school time!

Currently
listening: the fan
mood: good [even though im crying]
why?: you'll see

well school has been great so far. Lunch is kinda chaotic, but other than that, it's all good. um, i love my teacher. most of them are nice, but then again, it's only the first week lol. all my peeps are good........im hella sleepy now. im waiting for my daddy to tell me whats up with going to the store. i dont have time for his indecisiveness. well, i bet your wondering why im crying. well i went to travies blog and read a poem. i was so sweet [sweet stuff makes me emotional]. so yeah, i think it's a guy talking to a new love. i think they are very young, kinda like a romeo and juliet type deal. anyway, here it goes. [if i knew who wrote it, i would quote it, but i dont so whatever.]


If you said goodbye to me tonight
There would still be music left to write
What else could I do
Im so inspired by you
That hasnt happened for the longest time

Once I thought my innocence was gone
Now I know that happiness goes on
Thats where you found me
When you put your arms around me
I havent been there for the longest time

Im that voice youre hearing in the hal
lAnd the greatest miracle of all
Is how I need you
And how you needed me too
That hasnt happened for the longest time

Maybe this wont last very long
But you feel so right
And I could be wrong
Maybe Ive been hoping too hard
But Ive gone this far
And its more than I hoped for
Who knows how much further well go on
Maybe Ill be sorry when youre gone
Ill take my chances
I forgot how nice romance is
I havent been there for the longest time

I had second thoughts at the start
I said to myself
Hold on to your heart
Now I know the woman that you are
Youre wonderful so far
And its more than I hoped for
I dont care what consequence it brings
I have been a fool for lesser things
I want you so bad
I think you ought to know that
I intend to hold you for the longest time

through the wire.

Currently
listening: Jay-Z- What More Can I Say
mood: happy
why?: idk. i just am

omg. i feel so bad for my baby. he's making a beat and it's making him mad :( I really wanna help him.....but yeah, while he's doing that, i wanna tell ya'll about my day.

i woke up at like 10. i had a text from tyler. i texted him and told him about my dream [it was pretty stressing to say the least]. i took a shower in the dark, which was fun. i got out and texted ty and azia. called ty. then after that, i took a damn nap

i woke up and talked to my mom and i was textin my FREAK of a boyfriend and then marcel texted me. lets just say that went well. LMAO! azia called me mean when i told her about it. LMAO! it was hilarious. so im over his ass. HA! tyler's fag ass went to gawayne's house so i called chelsea and talked her his gay pride ass for a couple minutes [read he blog and you'll know what im talkina bout.] i love her. but after that, i went in my room and took pictures. they cute! i talked to azia on and off for a while. it was funny. then the internet went out. tyler called soon after than. he had me rollin! lol. now im talking to kyndra! woo. im gone here! [night.]

more than your music?

ok, so the currently thing is just too much for me. but yeah. i was talking to tyler and he told me something that really hit me. im not gonna tell ya'll what it was, just know it hit me hard. but i really want to love him and i do, but i dont know how. i know how i could be, but im not really sure how to do it. he is so special to me and i know im special to him, but i feel like i still have this guard up. i wanna give him my all. i want to love him so much. im just scared. i dont wanna put my heart on the line and have it hurt. so right now, im walking on thin ice, not knowing what to do. i need help people. i love my boyfriend, i'm just scared to get hurt. so yeah, im gonna clean my room and cry. ttyl.

2 in 1 day?

Currently
listening: Kanye shuffle
mood: fantastic
why?: im just feelin good

yeah. i went out with the boyfriend today. we had fun. we walked around hiram for about 5 hours. and we went on our first date at chilli's lol. wooo. we have this random connetion and it's something we'd only understand. [blueberry muffin]. but walking around and crap made we realize how much i love my little town. idk why that was on my mind like the whole time but it was. i really dont care how much ppl bash it. if you look at it, it nice and clean and better than living in the middle of the woods [even though you may feel we do]. idk, im just rambling. i stink so im taking a bath like now. im gonna post some pics. random of course. i love you. i love tyler. out.

young moola baby!

Currently
listening: my sexy ass boyfriend's new beat [he made me write that]
mood: giggly
why?: idk

omg. im so listening to that put on remix. it was pretty damn hard. kinda like me. lol but lately, i've been chillin. i spent the night at chelsea's last weekend. it was fun. nothing better than hanging with the bestie and second family. we saw dark knight!!! it was so good. heath ledger didnt deserve to die. he was a great actor......i started this thing at like 10 and now it's 1. i've on the phone with ty for like the past couple of hours. ....i love him [tee hee hee]. lol i'm really thinking about starting up a story or either picking up one of my old ones. it seems like i was happier when i was writing. it's better than just sitting still all day. but anyways, im HELLA sleepy. Good night loves. MUAH!

R.I.P Heath Ledger.

today is that day.

Currently
listening: Chromeo- Fancy Footwork
mood: happy
why?: umm you'll see


omfg. im totally happy. tyler finally asked me out and it feels awesome. it was at our spot! super duper romantic for no apparent reason. so yeah, this shall be maked in history and remembered for forever. :) and my mommy was happy for us........my daddy...not so much. my brothers dont even know. "/ but im happy so thats all that matters. i guess we'll see where it goes from here. hopefully far. so i guess y'all gone have to stay tuned! lol other than that, lifes good, like the phones. i think thats about it. i love you ppl. :)

am i insane or do i really see heaven in your eyes?

Currently
listening: Amy Winehouse feat. Jay-Z- Rehab [Remix]
mood: happy
why?: life's good


hello fags! lol kidding lovers. I LOVE Y'ALL! [my baby just make a touchdown]. Well yeah, I've been bored but tyler, chelsea, and azia have been keeping me entertained. i'm doing this babysitting thing at jasia's house tomorrow and wednesday. CANT WAIT! i get to play the game ON DECK! lol. swear he need to just be in the NFL and get it over with. [he just came back in the game and is really excited about it] i still love him though. :) oh yeah, if you didnt know, chelsea cut all that long sexy hair off, and now it's short and beautiful! welcome to the club babes! :) [& he's talking about someone tripping. they could have gotten hurt. thats mean lol] well yeah, i'm talking about a whole lotta nothing. i'm gonna talk about something for real.

So, i just realized I'm turning 17 and it's like hella scary. i get in these moods sometimes and over think the future but whatever. it's scary thinking about being on my own, in college, without parents, meeting new ppl, pursuing my career, ect ect. And it's crazy how im gonna take the SAT's in about 3 months.....UGH! it makes me stressed. I'm gonna go have a coke and smile and forget about it. I just wanted to let ya'll in my mind for a second.

[listening to my daddy]

[bitch got new shoes]

[keimonte. my love]

[cierra. i love her]

Fresh...Uh huh....Yes She Is.

Currently
listening: Lupe F.- Sunshine
mood: fantastic
why?: i'm talking to the most amazing guy in the world

Tyler came over yesterday & it was great. We had a really special moment when we were outside. Thats between us though. lol. Lately, life has been great. My family is on really good terms. My freinds are all happy. My love life......freakin great. I'm just happy. But yeah, ummmm, idk what to talk about, so im going now.

Someone that wants you. Someone who'll never leave you.

Currently
listening: Mutya Buena- Just A Little Bit
feeling: happy
why?: you'll see.



OMG! My last 2 post kinda put it all out there that I don't have to best of luck with the opposite sex, but just recently, I started talking to this guy and I really think he was brought into my life for a reason. He makes me happy, even when I'm ready to breakdown. Yesterday, we stayed up for 24 hours just talking. lol. It was fun though. It was something about him that made me just wanna stay up.....and saying that made me think of that little saying, "you really like someone when you can't sleep because reality is way better." I'm guessing thats what I was feeling. But last night, we were on the phone and he told me about his past and how he was such a bad person and what not. I told him about how I'd been hurt deeply in the past and how I'm scared to open up because of it. I've NEVER in my life told anyone why I felt that way and I told him. So, I'm really looking forward to our future (whatever that may be) and I'm willing to let him lead me through this thing (holding my hand the whole time). In my last post, I said that guy was perfect.......I lied. Tyler is. :)

officially missing you.

Currently
listerning: Amy Winehouse shuffle
mood: content
why: i'm realizing things and accepting them

I've been thinking about blogging and turns out this really helps me get out all of my emotion. But anyway, that last post is so far from my mind right now. I was surfing the net and randomly thought of my freshman year crush [ridiculous huh?]. Well let me finish. He was the only guy I can honestly say I really liked for all the right reasons in a LONG time. He was nice, respectful, liked me for me, never really pissed me off [lol], and had a good head on his shoulders, pretty much. And he was very attractive. So yeah, he was in PE when I was in weight training and I'd see him right before I went to Coach Pilgram's class and right after that. He broke up with his girlfriend and there was an undeniable connection between us. Well, maybe a month after I start liking him, he has to go to another school. I was so upset. And I remember, he kissed me on the forehead before Coach Pilgram's class on his last day and he hugged for like forever in PE.

Well, I say all that to say, I'm missing him. We kept in touch after he left and we always talked about how we would defiantly be together if he still went to MHS. I don't think it's just him I'm missing. I'm missing the idea of a guy that knows how he's feelings and ain't trying to cover it up for nobody. I think our situation is God telling me how I'm suppose to be treated and how I'm suppose to feel with a significant other. I had butterflies every time I saw him, spoke to him, messaged him, called him.....everything about him was perfect.

Well I'm done talking. Message me on myspace. Comment. Just get at me.

la la la la la la la la la....

Currently
listening: Lil Wayne- La La
mood: torn
why?: you'll see....

ok, so most of you know I've had this "relationship" with this guy. I told myself to just leave him alone and just forget about him. Well that is so much easier said than done. I love being with him. We can talk about anything. We laugh. We have all the benifits of a bf/gf type thing, but it was never official. We didn't speak from about December til maybe March and I said I wasn't gonna go any deeper than friends with him....well, that didn't work. It makes me wanna cry because it's like a have a soft spot for him that shouldn't be there. I should be able to turn him down, right? It's hella crazy. It makes me sick. I wanna let him go, but it's like hella hard. I just wish I wouldn't have let it go this deep.

ugh. I need to do my hair so I'm gonna do that.

bye.

if my man was fighting.......

Currently
listening: Amy Winehouse - Some Unholy War
feeling: worn out, but good
why?: i made the most of my day pretty much.

So yeah, im like so sleepy, but i dont feel like getting up from my desk, taking my iPod out, and taking...AT THE MOST....3 steps to my bed. lol Thats a shame. But I totally did my ADAP class today and it was really eye opening. it was sad at the same time. But yeah, Im texting sushi and we're talkin about having a "bitches who rock" reunion. That would be awesome. We need to go to see Love Guru on friday. lol I wanna see that so bad. But yeah other than that, I SAW MY CHELSEA!!!!!!!!! I miss her so much and she's my BESTEST FRIEND and i've only seen her twice ALL summer. RIDICULOUS!!!!! lol well i'm done here. I'f nothing is on TV, I'll so to sleep. bye!!!

Feels Good To Be Home.

Currently
listening: Usher- Appetite
feeling: good
why?: it's a good day.

Well yeah, I havent been here in a while. Been meaning to blog, but never got around to it. I got some new books im TOTALLY addicted to. And the suprising thing is that it all about this boy and him trying to stay a man of God and still be "the man". I really like the balance between it being a book about God and how he works it all out for you and being about a young [good lookin i might add] man that is trying to go to college, be a great wide reciever for GA Tech, and trying hard not to have sex with his girlfriend and ex girlfriend. DRAMARIFIC!!!!!!!! Well yeah, it pushed me to have a closer relationship with the man upstairs. And lately, everything has been good and all the glory goes to Him. ok ok ok enough of me preaching. I'm about to go to the grocery store and get some freakin food. YUM!!!!!!!!!

ay lil buddy.

Currently
listening: Trina feat. Killa Mike - Look Back At Me
feeling: good :D
why?: i had a good day

[oh shit. Drake just came on!]

Well yeah, I had a good day today. My and the bestie, Azia went to Arbor and it was hilarious. Hella people was lookin a hot mess. We got hit on the whole time. This man that worked at the T-Mobile thing tried to talk to me and he was lookin horrible. He had about 4 teeth and they was yellow! Me and Azia was cracking up when I was cracking up. We laughed right when we alked off we was hella loud! I bet than man felt bad. It was so funny. Then this ly was walkin around wit a long tee shirt, some booty shorts, and slippers like she was at home or just going to the grocery store. Then hella old white ppl was here. lol. It's official. I can only go to Cumberland. lol. But other than all the hilariousness, I got a new number. Some guy named JC. He was cute. Kinda big like a football player. I usually like basketball players, but I'll make an acception for him. But he had a horrible lookin friend that tried to get my number too. I was like, ummmmmm no. lol. And on top of that, he lives in P-Town too. WOOT WOOT. But yeah, I bought I caramel frappuccino, pizza, a book, and a soda. lol But when I came home, I had to cuz this nigga name Josh out. I swear I can't stand him. Dumb ass. Well I lost a hoe, and gained on all in one day. Amazing. lol Well Im bout go read my book. IT'S GOOD!

:D

night babes.

I write what I see.

Currently
listening: Hip-Hop Saved My Life - Lupe Fiasco feat. Nikki Jean
feeling: irritated :
why?: my brother is smackin.....HATE THAT SO MUCH!

My bestie just left and I'm bored. I'm just got irritated [and lil wayne just came on....WTF!] and now i dont feel like talkin. Im gonna take a shower and hopefully I'll feel better.

UGH!!!!!!

Whoopin Ass & Takin' Names.

Currently
listening: Chris Brown - Get At Ya
feeling: hella good
why?: my bestie is over here! [SCORE!!]

So yeah, like I predicted, yesterday was good. I did all the things I set out to do. Chels is over here. :D She watching the real world. [love that show] I just filled out an application for Finish Line. I hope I get the job. I already made friends lol. Ima call up there Monday morning. But other than all that crap, it's been good. For the first time in a while, boys have NOT been the center my thoughts [odd yes.]. It's pretty good.
IM GOING TO LLOYD'S HOUSE TOMORROW!!!!!!!!! I'm so 'cited! lol
ok ok ok
Im done here.
I WANT MY PHONE!!!!!!
[gonna put up some pics.]

...good times lol

OMG-erzzz!

Currently
listening: Beyonce'- Resentment
feeling: HYPER!
why?: today seems like it's gonna be a good day.....

It is TOTALLY 5-something in the morning, but I cant sleep. I just cleaned up the whole downstairs for no reason. RANDOM!!!!! C.Jones aka [Miss.High.Yellow] kinda gave me a random craving for water so im drink im bottled water and trying to get over this head cold. But yeah, here is my to-do list for today.

1. Go to sleep
2. Wake up
3. Take a showe
4. [maybe] clean more
5. ask if chels can spend the night
6. if not [God forbid], ask can i go over to her house
7. go to the mall w/ chels & my brother to turn in applications
8. go where i go.....[refer to 4&5]
9. hang out.....take pics......blog.....the usual
10. eat
11. [maybe] go to sleep.

So yeah, thats about it.
Pray for me!

Summer Rain.

Currently
listening: Usher: Love You Gently
feeling: good :D
why?: i just ate some food.

So yeah, I was kinda wildin' earlier today. Im good. I just need to see my friends. So yeah, I'm just sitting here thinking about my life at this moment. And I just want more....like b.spears. Like i want money, fame, forture, and all the stuff girls dream about as little pigglets. that might just be my capricorn spirit kicking in. MONEY MONEY BUSINESS & MONEY. lol. But yea, other than my need to have money, im pretty good. Boys are so sensitive. im talkin to this guy and he's like the oddest individual.(kinda random) so yea, im kinda bored of this. Im gonna so keep doing my iTunes. time to ask my mommy if my friend can come over. PLZ LORD SAY YES!!!!!!!

ok so im dont here.

[light as a feather, but hard as a rock]

4:33 AM Friday Morning.

Currently
listening: Chris Brown- Take You Down
feeling: kinda ok...i guess
want...: to go to my Chelsea's house :(

ok so it's 4 in the morning.....im on my gwen stefani shit lol. I was kinda mad, but i started doing my iTunes crap and got happy. So um yeah, i wanna rant so here we go.

I REALLY and TRULY dont understand parents. Why is it that i open up to you...tell you pretty much all my business and still dont trust me or want to keep me under your wing. I just dont get it. You keep telling me "you need to get out", "your should do something" and bout time i ask, you are up in arms about it. It's summer. I have nothing else better to to with my life other than sit around the house and be bored. Can i at least be bored staring at somebody else's walls. UGH i just dont get their logic. And folks always saying "you'll understand when you become a parent" and i really and truly dont think I will..................

And another thing. why is it that since im the only girl, i get trated like the baby......AND IM THE MIDDLE CHILD! it's nice to be able to do some thing...i stress SOME.......things my brothers dont do, but i dont get to do alot of fun shit and do you know why?????? it's because i have boobs. It's retarded. Like i want to go out with my friends and hang out with my homegirls like ppl w/o boobs......AKA guys. And they say it because (and i quote) "i cant defend myself". WTF?!?!?!?!? Teach me. im more than willing to learn. It's stupid and im just getting pissed thinking about it....

done here.
bye whores.