more than your music?

ok, so the currently thing is just too much for me. but yeah. i was talking to tyler and he told me something that really hit me. im not gonna tell ya'll what it was, just know it hit me hard. but i really want to love him and i do, but i dont know how. i know how i could be, but im not really sure how to do it. he is so special to me and i know im special to him, but i feel like i still have this guard up. i wanna give him my all. i want to love him so much. im just scared. i dont wanna put my heart on the line and have it hurt. so right now, im walking on thin ice, not knowing what to do. i need help people. i love my boyfriend, i'm just scared to get hurt. so yeah, im gonna clean my room and cry. ttyl.