la la la la la la la la la....

Currently
listening: Lil Wayne- La La
mood: torn
why?: you'll see....

ok, so most of you know I've had this "relationship" with this guy. I told myself to just leave him alone and just forget about him. Well that is so much easier said than done. I love being with him. We can talk about anything. We laugh. We have all the benifits of a bf/gf type thing, but it was never official. We didn't speak from about December til maybe March and I said I wasn't gonna go any deeper than friends with him....well, that didn't work. It makes me wanna cry because it's like a have a soft spot for him that shouldn't be there. I should be able to turn him down, right? It's hella crazy. It makes me sick. I wanna let him go, but it's like hella hard. I just wish I wouldn't have let it go this deep.

ugh. I need to do my hair so I'm gonna do that.

bye.

if my man was fighting.......

Currently
listening: Amy Winehouse - Some Unholy War
feeling: worn out, but good
why?: i made the most of my day pretty much.

So yeah, im like so sleepy, but i dont feel like getting up from my desk, taking my iPod out, and taking...AT THE MOST....3 steps to my bed. lol Thats a shame. But I totally did my ADAP class today and it was really eye opening. it was sad at the same time. But yeah, Im texting sushi and we're talkin about having a "bitches who rock" reunion. That would be awesome. We need to go to see Love Guru on friday. lol I wanna see that so bad. But yeah other than that, I SAW MY CHELSEA!!!!!!!!! I miss her so much and she's my BESTEST FRIEND and i've only seen her twice ALL summer. RIDICULOUS!!!!! lol well i'm done here. I'f nothing is on TV, I'll so to sleep. bye!!!

Feels Good To Be Home.

Currently
listening: Usher- Appetite
feeling: good
why?: it's a good day.

Well yeah, I havent been here in a while. Been meaning to blog, but never got around to it. I got some new books im TOTALLY addicted to. And the suprising thing is that it all about this boy and him trying to stay a man of God and still be "the man". I really like the balance between it being a book about God and how he works it all out for you and being about a young [good lookin i might add] man that is trying to go to college, be a great wide reciever for GA Tech, and trying hard not to have sex with his girlfriend and ex girlfriend. DRAMARIFIC!!!!!!!! Well yeah, it pushed me to have a closer relationship with the man upstairs. And lately, everything has been good and all the glory goes to Him. ok ok ok enough of me preaching. I'm about to go to the grocery store and get some freakin food. YUM!!!!!!!!!

ay lil buddy.

Currently
listening: Trina feat. Killa Mike - Look Back At Me
feeling: good :D
why?: i had a good day

[oh shit. Drake just came on!]

Well yeah, I had a good day today. My and the bestie, Azia went to Arbor and it was hilarious. Hella people was lookin a hot mess. We got hit on the whole time. This man that worked at the T-Mobile thing tried to talk to me and he was lookin horrible. He had about 4 teeth and they was yellow! Me and Azia was cracking up when I was cracking up. We laughed right when we alked off we was hella loud! I bet than man felt bad. It was so funny. Then this ly was walkin around wit a long tee shirt, some booty shorts, and slippers like she was at home or just going to the grocery store. Then hella old white ppl was here. lol. It's official. I can only go to Cumberland. lol. But other than all the hilariousness, I got a new number. Some guy named JC. He was cute. Kinda big like a football player. I usually like basketball players, but I'll make an acception for him. But he had a horrible lookin friend that tried to get my number too. I was like, ummmmmm no. lol. And on top of that, he lives in P-Town too. WOOT WOOT. But yeah, I bought I caramel frappuccino, pizza, a book, and a soda. lol But when I came home, I had to cuz this nigga name Josh out. I swear I can't stand him. Dumb ass. Well I lost a hoe, and gained on all in one day. Amazing. lol Well Im bout go read my book. IT'S GOOD!

:D

night babes.

I write what I see.

Currently
listening: Hip-Hop Saved My Life - Lupe Fiasco feat. Nikki Jean
feeling: irritated :
why?: my brother is smackin.....HATE THAT SO MUCH!

My bestie just left and I'm bored. I'm just got irritated [and lil wayne just came on....WTF!] and now i dont feel like talkin. Im gonna take a shower and hopefully I'll feel better.

UGH!!!!!!

Whoopin Ass & Takin' Names.

Currently
listening: Chris Brown - Get At Ya
feeling: hella good
why?: my bestie is over here! [SCORE!!]

So yeah, like I predicted, yesterday was good. I did all the things I set out to do. Chels is over here. :D She watching the real world. [love that show] I just filled out an application for Finish Line. I hope I get the job. I already made friends lol. Ima call up there Monday morning. But other than all that crap, it's been good. For the first time in a while, boys have NOT been the center my thoughts [odd yes.]. It's pretty good.
IM GOING TO LLOYD'S HOUSE TOMORROW!!!!!!!!! I'm so 'cited! lol
ok ok ok
Im done here.
I WANT MY PHONE!!!!!!
[gonna put up some pics.]

...good times lol

OMG-erzzz!

Currently
listening: Beyonce'- Resentment
feeling: HYPER!
why?: today seems like it's gonna be a good day.....

It is TOTALLY 5-something in the morning, but I cant sleep. I just cleaned up the whole downstairs for no reason. RANDOM!!!!! C.Jones aka [Miss.High.Yellow] kinda gave me a random craving for water so im drink im bottled water and trying to get over this head cold. But yeah, here is my to-do list for today.

1. Go to sleep
2. Wake up
3. Take a showe
4. [maybe] clean more
5. ask if chels can spend the night
6. if not [God forbid], ask can i go over to her house
7. go to the mall w/ chels & my brother to turn in applications
8. go where i go.....[refer to 4&5]
9. hang out.....take pics......blog.....the usual
10. eat
11. [maybe] go to sleep.

So yeah, thats about it.
Pray for me!

Summer Rain.

Currently
listening: Usher: Love You Gently
feeling: good :D
why?: i just ate some food.

So yeah, I was kinda wildin' earlier today. Im good. I just need to see my friends. So yeah, I'm just sitting here thinking about my life at this moment. And I just want more....like b.spears. Like i want money, fame, forture, and all the stuff girls dream about as little pigglets. that might just be my capricorn spirit kicking in. MONEY MONEY BUSINESS & MONEY. lol. But yea, other than my need to have money, im pretty good. Boys are so sensitive. im talkin to this guy and he's like the oddest individual.(kinda random) so yea, im kinda bored of this. Im gonna so keep doing my iTunes. time to ask my mommy if my friend can come over. PLZ LORD SAY YES!!!!!!!

ok so im dont here.

[light as a feather, but hard as a rock]

4:33 AM Friday Morning.

Currently
listening: Chris Brown- Take You Down
feeling: kinda ok...i guess
want...: to go to my Chelsea's house :(

ok so it's 4 in the morning.....im on my gwen stefani shit lol. I was kinda mad, but i started doing my iTunes crap and got happy. So um yeah, i wanna rant so here we go.

I REALLY and TRULY dont understand parents. Why is it that i open up to you...tell you pretty much all my business and still dont trust me or want to keep me under your wing. I just dont get it. You keep telling me "you need to get out", "your should do something" and bout time i ask, you are up in arms about it. It's summer. I have nothing else better to to with my life other than sit around the house and be bored. Can i at least be bored staring at somebody else's walls. UGH i just dont get their logic. And folks always saying "you'll understand when you become a parent" and i really and truly dont think I will..................

And another thing. why is it that since im the only girl, i get trated like the baby......AND IM THE MIDDLE CHILD! it's nice to be able to do some thing...i stress SOME.......things my brothers dont do, but i dont get to do alot of fun shit and do you know why?????? it's because i have boobs. It's retarded. Like i want to go out with my friends and hang out with my homegirls like ppl w/o boobs......AKA guys. And they say it because (and i quote) "i cant defend myself". WTF?!?!?!?!? Teach me. im more than willing to learn. It's stupid and im just getting pissed thinking about it....

done here.
bye whores.