this right here's a panty dropper!

Currently
Listening: Trey Songz - Neighbors Know My Name
Mood: Happy
Why?: Idk LOL

So I'm sure this is going to be a LONG post. I just want to talk.

oh & this post has nothing to do with panties dropping....that's just the song that was playing LOL.

So the last 2 weeks have been crazy! I got back with JQ. Eh. Then broke up with him again for reason I'll keep to myself. Just know TRUST is everything, if you want to be with me. He didn't cheat. I didn't cheat. I like to think of it as a communication error. So it breaks my heart to not be with him...but I'm not dying of unbearable pain, like before. The whole situation really put things in perspective for me. I know I can't trust some people. I know who are my real friends. & to be honest, I'm good with that. I think my girls are more pissed about the situation than I am. In the words of Miss Lauren Hill, he might win some, but he just loss one. I knew was 100% and was down for him, no matter what. I hope he has a great life with his friend what he trusted over me =). That may sound bitchy, but in a situation where you know you did nothing wrong, that's the only way I can look at it really.

So what else is up with me?!

AH! I started writing again! For those of you, I was REALLY into writing was younger. I wanted to be a novelist & just write all day. That is still a passion of mine, but I never had the time/inspiration/effort to even pick it up. Now with this break up, my mind is less crowded. My creativity shot up. It was crazy. I was sitting in Anatomy class & BAM!, a story pops in my head. I wrote a page in less than 10 minutes. It's turning out pretty good, though my skills are a tad rusty, but I'm sure it'll get better. I'm not telling you what it's about. That's a secret! I don't like to jinx it. OH & I remember when I wrote fanfiction. B5 Fanfiction to be exact & all my time went into writing & reading those stories. It was pathetic, but it was fun in the moment! LOL! So my new side thing is writing. Get at me! LOL. [WHAT THE....i dont know what I meant by get at me LOL].

....I think I'm done talking...for now.
I think I'm going to update B&N....I think.
So look out for that loves!

xoxo
Jupiter!

ps! I went to see Trey Songz with Azia on Tuesday! AH! He was gorgeous!

Tis great! It was the day after the break up too! What a great way to forget about all the drama of the night before?! LOL

kids are the best!

Currently
Listening: Chris Brown- Superhuman
Mood: GREAT!
why?: I saw my family today!

So today after school was just like any other day. I got a text from JQ, cleaned something, listened to music, & look at my school work. All this usually last for like 30 minutes, then I take a nap. WELL! Today when I lay down to take my nap, my mom yells out, "WHO WANTS TO GO TO GRANDMA'S HOUSE?!" I jumped up, got dressed, & was down the stairs so flippin fast! LOL. I was super excited!

Can't you see the excitement oozing out of me?! LOL

So we get over there & my little cousin Sky is up & lively. Well she's like 6 months so what would I expect?! LOL. So I got to the back, hoping my little cousin Monte is ready to play & have all kinds of fun! LOL. You know what he's going?!

This kid is KNOCKED! LOL I was like AWH PISS! LOL! So we're sitting over there. My mom is having a grand time with Sky & I have NO kid to play with! So after a hour, I just say fuck it & I wake him up. He totally tricked me though! He opened one of his eyes when I shook him, then turned over like he was still sleeping. I was like Ok, he's really sleep, so i started to get up & he tapped my arm & put the covers over his head. It was over from here! We played for the rest of the time I was there! He even threw a chicken nugget at my head! LOL!

But I really never understood the concept of little kids. They are so innocent & simple minded, you just can't help but have all you worries melt away when you're with them. I noticed he was getting taller when I was playing & was like WOW, my boo is REALLY growing up! I had a really OK day today & his laughter just made it so much better. It was crazy! The love from a little kid is something you can never get over. I love this kid WAAAY too much. I swear LOL.

Monte & Sky!

Sky! (Monte calls her Guy LOL)

He had on my sunglasses! HOW THUG IS HE?! LOL

They are AMAZING & always keep a smile on my face! So if you have a little kid in your life, give them a HUGE hug & kiss!

xoxo
Jupiter
broke & nameless

Real Girl.

Currently
Listening: Mutya Buena: Real Girl
Mood: good
why?: just made a playlist of all my "feel good" songs!

So my last post, "The BreakUp" was taken down, but it will be back up soon. Every girl knows what hearbreak feels like & if you don't...LUCKY YOU! :P LOL. but yeah, I was so torn up that night. I was letting my situation get the best of me. But NO MORE i tell you! No more meltdown from Jasmine Nicole! I am just going to look at the present & the future. Who knows what God has planned for me? He knows my story & what will happen. He obviously didn't want me in that relationship. That would explain the 'out of body type' experience i had while ending it. JESUS TOOK THE WHEEL! I'm gonna stop beating myself up about it now. It's over & done. Now I just have to wipe my hands clean of the situation. Release & relax, in the words of The Quiet Storm. Maybe my senior year is suppose to be this way. Single, fun, happy times. No stress....besides school & getting moneys for college LOL. So that is my main focus at the moment. I have my whole life to feel for someone like i felt for JQ. Al least I know what falling in love feels like now. That's a positive. So as far as dating goes, I think I'll be open in a couple months. Nothing serious. I love you's are out of the question for a while. I never understood how people stay in a relationship. Work work work! & the work I have NO time for! :) LOL. Guy friends are what I'm going to be looking for & that is really it. So that taste of regret I was talking about got SOUR. Now the sweet taste of letting go is creeping up....& I'm loving it baby!

xoxo
Jupiter

The Break Up.

Currently
Listening: Amy Winehouse- Wake Up Alone
Mood: drained
why?: READ lol

So I broke up with my boyfriend.

Idk man. My mind is running a mile a minute at ALL TIMES since July 30th. When I say I loved him (& I still do), I mean that with all of my heart. Our relationship was so good & I fucked it up. I wouldn't be surprised if he wanted nothing whatsoever to do with me & I don't blame him for that. The pain I feel is almost unbearable. I even called last night because I already missed the late night comversations. I've been filling my time with unnecessary things, like trying to go any & everywhere & even playing the X-Box. But it's the time when I'm alone in my room & my thoughts start to take over. Thinking about the talk leading up to me making the decision to let it go. Thinking about the weight that lifted off my shoulders. Then thinking about the way he says things, his kisses through the phone, the way he said "I love you too"...it makes me think "Damn, I should have tried to talk it out. Tell him what I was feeling. Maybe, just maybe, I put this all on myself." It's easy to break up with a person you have lost feelings for, but what if your feelings are still burning hot? It's the hardest thing to endure. I still think & talk about him like we're still together, then I think "OH YEAH! We're over." That is when the tears flow. That's when I feel the hole in my chest. That is when the sour taste of regret creeps up. Yummy =/. I could say "I'm sorry" to him a million & one times, if I hurt him. But I'm slowly becoming more content with the fact that he may not want me anymore. It's hard, but I'll be ok, i guess. This post is long, but I haven't even spilled half of my soul. I'll ttyl

xoxo
Jupiter

"eat yo salad. no dessert"

Currently
listening: Keri Hilson - Quicksand
mood: motivated
why?: just got off the treadmill

"Thanks to Kanye's Workout Plan, I'm the envy of all my friends!" Not really, but you get the idea. so i'm usually a cool 145 lbs. i got on the scale the other day & now I'm 155. 10 lbs & it's definately showing. from dimples to love handles...& my butt it getting HUGE! though the last part is what i've been waiting for all my life, it's not atractive when everything around it is also ballooning. So i decided to go on a MEAN workout & diet plan. well it's not that mean. Treadmill for 30 minutes everyday. Pilates/Yoga/Bum Buster workouts every other day. Today I ate a grilled cheese, green grapes, & some watermelon, sided with water. Then after, I took 2 vitamins. I think i'm really ready to get in shape now. i've never been this motivated to actually do. Hopefully, I'll loose some inches before school starts. I'll be looking good for my senior year. AYE! lol. I'm gone now.

PS. make sure you check out the B&N blog. [link on the side]

xoxo
Jupiter

happy nappy living!

Currently
listening: Big Sean - Glenwood
mood: sleepy/excited
why?: BIG SEAN TWEETED ME!

So last night I was up tweeting like NOBODIES BUSINESS! I was in a mass tweetversation(i dont see that one catching on lmao) with Jae, JQ, & EazyE Dot or Mr. Dot. I've come to the conclusion that Mr. Dot is his dance machine allias. But we all talked on twitter until the word limit got on all out nerves lol. Then we went to AIM chat & went HAM...or turkey(healthy alternative). We talked about Michael Jackson (tear), and music. great AIMversation(that wont catch on either lmao). Then everyone went to sleep....leaving me to deal with my insomnia head on. So i played with tweetdeck while listening to big sean then he posted a tweet so i replyed, thinking nothing of it. Then tweetdeck told me I had new mentions, & is was from whoooooooo?

BIG SEAN!!!!!!!!!!!

He was telling me to download the new mixtape (though i already have it). but the point is....HE TWEETED ME!! that make my night lol.

So after that, I updated the broke & nameless blog. ....you dont know the broke & nameless blog!

http://brokeandnameless.wordpress.com
dont be afraid to click it! lol

it's me and misshighyellow just talking about what we like. sounds cool, riiiiight?!?! lol.well it is. we talk about music, fashion, and TWILIGHT! lol. we love it! that shall be the blog that makes us famous! lol.

So in other more earth-shattering, life-changing news, SCAD SENT ME A LITTLE PACKET FOR THEIR SCHOOL!! SAVANNAH COLLEGE OF ART & WHAT?!?! DESIGN! lol. As you can see....I'm overtly excited! lmao!

...yeah...that just happened! lol. But this is my DREAM college and I really want to go there (despite what my parents say). Have faith in me? :) lol.

I'm signing off now.

xoxo
Jupiter

BET Awards

Currently
listening: Trey Songz - I Need A Girl
mood: sleepy
why?: i just ate some bomb nachos

So last night was the BET Awards and it was kind of a snoozer. It was a really REALLY funny overall. From the slow censor guy to the Don Cornelius' speech, it was flippin hilarious. The performances were cool. Keri stole the show. Beyonce was a disappointment. Jay-Z was cool. Ne-Yo was AH-MAZING! Jamie Fox had too much autotune. Mary-Mary was the jizz. God In Me is my jam! lol It seemed a little low budget to me though. But it was ok to be really short notice. I wish Chris Brown would have performed...ugh! Stupid Jay-Z had to ruin it. I still love him though. The DOA video goes STUPID hard [in the words of Gucci Mane] lmao. Overall, the show was OOOOOOOOOOkay! lol.

Beyonce's dress was my FAV!

POW! She hit yall nigga ya'll in the head with this one!

& Amber look beautiful & fly [as always]

Here's the DOA video
[just in case you didn't see it]

xoxo
Jupiter
[broke & nameless]